The way you loved me?
It was in the way a best friend pushes another’s swing
It was the way the air caught my hair
As you pulled me in close, to push me ever higher
It was the way your smile drove my success
And comforted me when I thought I couldn’t do it
It was the way you called my name,
Your lips carefully forming the word in the gentlest manner,
As if scared to break it.
Slyly taking a peek, as my heart fluttered the butterflies away
It was the way you sat next to me, never a question, always a constant.
It was the way nothing was forced, everything was a constant flow
It was the way I was always self conscious, but never embarrassed when with you
It was the way you blindly trusted me, every word I said law.
It was the way, that on my saddest day you took my breath away
I couldn’t breathe, you made me laugh so hard.
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It was the way on the day you said you wanted to leave,
I knew you were lying.
It was the way that on that day I agreed,
Your countenance appeared strong, but I saw through it.
It was the way from then on, we were silenced.
Our masks, we thought were strong, but our friends knew.
They knew us deep down, they saw our pain, and they cried with us.
~~It was the way that pain never healed
Losing a best friend and the destruction left behind
Which brought me to my knees on my strongest days.
It was the way I saw it in you too,
Your outrageous nature hidden to the naked eye.
It only tore the gaping hole ever more.
~~It was the way every time I said, “I’m over it,”
I knew I wasn’t.
It was the way your looks are now unreadable to me
Always leaving me to question.
But now, it is the way that I finally learned,
That your love has set me free.
